My profile pic is a sheep in wolf's clothing, just a quick doodle drawn on my phone screen.
This is what I and many PIMOs feel like, forced to be in a situation where we are pressured to do damaging things like enforce shunning, uphold an abusive organization and defend it against all reason, and preach dangerous doctrine to the public. Yet we try not to be used as tools to the extent we can manage, try not to do any more harm than we already did when mentally in, and attempt to redress from within to a degree.